Drowning n Asphyxiated

hai blog.lme tk jmpe?ape khbr?baik je?ouh..aku?ok je la.

sekolah:
boring.bru lpas scnd exam.sej 36%.dn utk 1st time dlm hidup.lulus fizik dgn cmerlang bg aku.dpt 58%.sume ni hasil usaha aku yg tk pnah knal pnat pada tido,mkn,maen dota dn gitar.pnah juge pgg buku.tp hny selak2 je.mls nk hafal.hei! wake up daus! this year is your spm! nk jdik ape lau tk bgus kputusan? biseng ah kau.suke aty aku la.bkn susahkn kau pn.
aku jugak da dpt blek belt puteh yg kne rmpas taun lpas after buat surat nk mtk blek.stupid school.nk mtk blek brg kpunyaan sndri pn nk pkai surat.skola korg ade jgak ke mcm ni?tkde?asl tkde?suro r ckgu korg bwat mcm ni.bru best.

persahabatan:
sumua ok.tiada perselisihan faham.tp kdg2 ade yg ngnjing dn gelakkn aku.agk mkn dlm.saket jgak la ble kwn sme2 maen,sme2 jamming pn ngnjing jgak.tp tkpe la.aslkn dye bhagia.

cinta:
semua ok jge.mken hari mken syg.tiada ape dpt hlg sy dri trus sygkn awk.sy nk awk tau dn ingt ni slalu.sy slalu rndukn awk.sy mtk maaf lau bwat awk saket.sy tk berniat nk mnyakiti awk pn syg.sy harap awk dpt maafkn ksalahan sy.sy jgak nk bgtau.sy tk pnah syg prmpuan laen mcm sy syg awk.hny awk dlm aty sy awk.ingt ni.hny awk SAHAJE.tkde org laen lg yg mmpu bwat sy bhgia.

laen2:
aku rndu kau.knp kau pgy mcm tu je.kau tau tk aku saket.da sbulan kau pgy.hidup aku kosong.kau tk ckp ape2 pn mse kau pgy.at least bgtau kau jgak sygkn aku.kau tglkn aku mcm ni.aku tk tau pde spe lg utk aku luahkn perasaan.bsme tiap mlm,pg ptg.tdo sme2.aku btol2 rndukn kau.knp kau pgy?kau mrah kt aku ke?aku bwat kau saket ke?aku da ptos ase nk crik kau.aku rase da tk dpt jmpe kau lg.tp aku hrp sgt2 kau blek smula pd aku.aku kcwa.tkde sorg pn bole tlg aku.aku perlukn korg.tp korg bwat tk tau je.tkpe la.aku fhm.korg pn ade mslh korg sndri.mmg kte tk bole bwat ape2 utk mslh org laen.pd kau.kalau nk tngkn fikiran,jgn pgy lme2 ea.aku rndu sgt kt kau.nti da blek bgtau aku ye.aku tk sbr nk tgu kau.

dari hati:
when this began.i had nothing to say.and i get lost in the nothingness inside of me.i was confused.and i let it all out to find.that im not the only person with these things in mind.inside of me.but all the vacancy the words revealed is the only real thing that ive got left to feel.nothing to lose.just stuck.hollow and alone.and the fault is my own.i want to heal.a want to feel.what i thought was never real.i want to let go of the pain i have held so long.erase all the pain until it is gone.like im close to something real.i want to find something i have wanted all along.


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